So here I am in my demise. We are getting evicted. But hey what can I do abou it.

I have decided instead of being all whoe is me I will look at this, not as the end, but as a new beginning!

You know to start over and make the best of what I have now and what I am given later!

OMFJ! I am so freakin pissed off it isn't even funny. I want to like punch mice and bunnies! I was talking to holly and you know how she liked me and i liked her ( if not now you do) but anyway I wanted to ask her out but was afraid she would say no and today i found out she felt the same and she wanted to ask me out and was afraid I would say now when we both would have said the exact same thing. OMFJ I am so fucking pissed off! GRRRR!

Now I liked holly for a long ass time and i think that this is so unfair how this ended and I woiuld so ask her out but at the time I have a boyfriend.....GRRRR!

"Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping... waiting... and though unwanted... unbidden...
it will stir... open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... passion rules us all,
and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments.
The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief.
It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion
maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow...
Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead."


If only this wasn't true. If only we could get through without the passion that lives in life. That follows us day after day. I want to live without that feeling of pain or love. But there is nothing anyone can do and so we go on. What more can we do?

Today is New Years Eve. Last year today I walked all the way to hwp through robbins to see ryan tofani! isnt that grand. but yeah my x-mas sucked majorly. I didnt get to see any of my other family. my grandparents wont even acknowledge me and lets see i didnt even got to see the people who do like me... but it wasnt so bad... but yeah i am so bored right now and cant wait for the new year. I hope it is better than 2006! so ttyl!

Can you believe it is almost Christmas... the year went by so fast. I can't wait and yet I wish it wouldn't come. I used to love Christmas... it rocked. Now all it is is a bad memory I wish not to return too.